Grrr....
I had clinical today and what a waste it was. I mean I'm there to learn right? Today was weird because no one wanted a nursing student touching them. My patient actually asked if my stethoscope was real. WTF dude. No I just like to pretend to hear your heart and lungs. Then proceeded to ask if I could feel his pulse with my gloves on. Oh and the machine that is broken half the time must be better than me taking your pulse and blood pressure manually. Then he wouldn't let me change his dressing, even though my instructor was going to be there. Well, I don't know what her credentials are. Well she is a FUCKING NURSE. Stupid fucking people! ok, I feel better now.
Strange
I will always wonder how certain people end up here. There are some truly strange individuals out there. And that's all I will say about that subject.
| Your French Name is: |
 Amélie Rousseau |
I actually love this name.(the first name not the surname) But it is weird that this is what they came up with considering my name is french.
And this is what came up under my Muslim name:
| Your French Name is: |
| Alexandrie Gregoire |
| Your Personality Profile |
 You are dependable, popular, and observant.Deep and thoughtful, you are prone to moodiness.In fact, your emotions tend to influence everything you do.
You are unique, creative, and expressive.You don't mind waving your freak flag every once and a while.And lucky for you, most people find your weird ways charming! |
The World's Shortest Personality Test
I need this thing called motivation
Pah, I haven't done anything freaking productive today. I have a test on Wed. and a presentation due on Thurs. Do you think I have opened a book? Why, no is the correct answer! I don't know why I am so unmotivated. I'm lacking something. Class wasn't too bad today. I stopped recording my lectures. Who am I kidding. I'm not going to listen to a three hour lecture again. Why bother recording it. It would just end up on my list of things not accomplished.
I went to Target today and I so wanted to say something to the cashier. She was just being rude and it took all I had to keep my mouth shut. I am trying to be nicer to people. Do you know how hard it is when you live in one of the states with the WORST customer service rating? I guess my standards are just high.
I have a friend who is dating someone that her mother doesn't approve of because he doesn't have money. And she feels that the relationship has moved to fast. I have never understood the whole "it's moving too fast" thing. I think that you can spend a hundred years with someone had never be ready and then some people you can know five minutes and you know that you want to spend the rest of your life together. I mean I fell for my man the minute I met him. Ok, it was probably more lust than anything but on some subconscious level I just knew. I have talked to some of my girlfriends and they say the same thing. That they knew instantly with their husbands. Kinda when you have the pit in your stomach as your walking down the aisle. You know you shouldn't but you go on anyway. I had a boyfriend propose once and I wanted to vomit right then and there. I thought that I really wanted to be with him up until that moment. Guess I was wrong!
October
OCTOBER - Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Sexy. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making new friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Day dreamer. Loyal. Opinionated. Does not care what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Honest, does not pretend. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.
Hmmm...I would have to agree with some of this. I do love to chat. Once you get to know me I am a full chatterbox. Nonstop, I am. I do love those who love me, But isn't that something that everyone does? Sexy? NO. Gets angry often, ok, only behind the wheel of my car. Day dreamer, yes. Loyal, big on my list. Opinionated, well that's an understatement if I have ever heard one. Doesn't care what others think, true. Emotional, not really. Decisive, no. Loves to travel, yes. Loves the arts and literature, yes, but I'm not one of those artsy people. I will just read anything I can get my hands on. Honest, yes. Concerned, sometimes.:) Loves outdoors???? Are you freaking kidding me??? I like the thought of outdoors and I like being outside but I am not really outdoorsy if that's what they mean. I hate camping and roughing it. So not me. SPENDTHRIFT? Ok, um, yeah right. They should only talk to my man and mom on that one. Easily influenced. Ok, just not no, but hell no. Easily loses confidence,no, I think I rule the world. Loves children, that ones iffy. I do love the ones that I know but I don't really notice kids that much. Only if they come up to me first. Toddlers love me for some odd reason. I think it's because I'm short. Hehehe. Babies scare me because I'm afraid that I'll drop them and break them. Except my nephew. I didn't want to put him down. Love at first sight does happen!
Thought this was funny
The National Transportation Safety Board recently divulged they had"covertly" funded a project with the U.S. automakers for the past 5 years,whereby the automakers were installing black-box voice recorders in 4-wheel drive pickup trucks and SUV's in an effort to determine in fatal accidents the circumstances in the last 15 seconds before the crash.They were surprised to find in 38 of the 50 states the recorded last words of drivers in 61.2 percent of fatal crashes were, "Oh Shit!"Only the states of North Carolina, South Carolina,Oklahoma,Tennessee,Kentucky,Arkansas,Alabama,Georgia,Mississippi,Louisiana and Texas were different, where 89.3 percent of the final words were: "Hold my beer, I'm gonna try somethin."
Scary thing is I know some people and those could be their last words.
Weird mood
Today was M. birthday party. It was so much fun. I really love baby's family. I only wish that my own could be here. Especially mom. I am missing her a lot right now. I can't wait till she gets home. M. is going to be the best dressed three year old. Everyone bought him clothes! He only got two toys. We took him to Toys r' us so I could get him one and then we took him to get his haircut. He was so well behaved! I was truly surprised. He said the funniest thing today. We were going to Starbucks and I was going in to get my coffee while baby stayed with and he says "M. don't forget me! Don't ever forget me!". I told him that I could never forget him. The things that come out of his mouth just floor me.
Ok, who bought up all the Spiderman birthday hats in South Florida? I would really love to know! No one had any. I just though that was so weird. I did find one package of Spiderman mask but still wasn't the same.
I was thinking today how lucky I am. I have done so much and am surrounded by so many loving people. I just can't believe how lucky I am. I really am feeling sorry for people who don't have the luxuries that we do. I mean I complain a lot on here but I do that as a way to vent. I mean I don't want to be a writer and I really don't care if anyone reads this or not. I don't know, I guess the cold tablet I took is messing with me. What can I say I am a lightweight.
Everyone was asking when we were getting married today. I laughed and said when he saves up enough money for my huge ring and dowry. I laughed and said it would be awhile since he has an expensive girlfriend. Heee.hee Even someone at the masjid asked him this evening! ACKKKKKKKKKK! I am also getting the "when are you going to start having babies?" question. What the...people. I don't even have a ring yet!
| You Were Naughty This Year |
 You Were 70% Naughty, 30% Nice
You may not have been good this year...But you sure had a really good time.And nothing from Santa could top that! |
How Naughty (Or Nice) Were You This Year?
mmmmmm.........I did have some fun this summer.....didn't know I had that much fun.
| You Belong in London |
 A little old fashioned, and a little modern.
A little traditional, and a little bit punk rock.
A unique woman like you needs a city that offers everything.
No wonder you and London will get along so well. |
What City Do You Belong In?
Normal Girl
| You Are a Normal Girl |
 You are 50% Good and 50% BadSure you've pulled some bad girl stunts in your past.But these days, you're (mostly) a good girl. |
Are You a Good Girl or a Bad Girl?
So glad that its Thursday
It's funny how one small thing can make your day better. I wasn't having the best day and I got a card from a girlfriend today and it just made me feel better! I wish I could get over this cold. I am never sick and I have gotten sick for last two winters. WTF? Ugh. I really thought I was dying yesterday. I didn't make to school. I felt so bad. I really thought a lung was trying to escape from by body.
Today's lecture was actually interesting today. It helps when the professor doesn't put you to sleep. I actually stayed awake for most of it and my mind only wandered once or twice for three hours. Mmm.. maybe my medicine is kicking in now. Who knew one little organ could make such havoc on ones body when missing.
I felt like a complete idiot in skills lab today. I was called out on my not reading. Yikes. All well. Out of all the people she had to call on for something hard it had to be me. Grrrr... and I wasn't the only one who didn't read. All well. I guess what I will be doing this weekend.
I wonder how in the world I will be ready for all of this when I graduate. I mean I get really terrified sometimes. I will have people depending on me so they will not only get better but won't die. I wonder if I am really cut out for such a big responsibility. I am loving what I am doing but will I be good at it? I see so many crappy ass doctors and nurses and I so don't want to be one of them.
It's funny because when I first started the program everyone was so friendly towards everyone. Now that it has gotten smaller it has become more like high school and everyone has their cliques. I really hate that our group has been broken up. It saddens me. But at least I wasn't left completely alone. That would have totally sucked. Jeesh, this blog gets more boring by the day.
I want to be somewhere else.
It's one of those days. It's actually perfect weather outside but I'm in a funk. Blah, Blah, Blah. I had an ok day. I got to do "real" nursing things today. I wish that we didn't have to do patient care. Oh, how I hate patient care. I got to take out my first Foley, gave my first SQ of Heparin and got to take my first rectal temp. Wooo-hoo! I also got yelled at by my nurse over something really small. We are thrown into a hospital and know nothing. Yet by the powers that be I must be all knowing. Sure. Whatever. All I can keep hearing is that expression "they eat their young"... it is so true. I have met very few nurses that are nice and helpful to us students. I hope I'm not that way we I get out on the floor.
Me and baby took his nephew for the night on Sunday. He will be 4 in three days and did really well with us. He slept without a fight, I got him bathed and dressed without one problem. We took him to Chuck E. Cheese for lunch and he rode some train ride 20,000 times!! Screw the games, he just wanted to sit in a chair that rocked back and forth. I did get in one game of skee ball though. Then we took him to the mall for his birthday shopping. That is where we found out he has a little shopping diva in him. We should have never let that kid loose in baby GAP. $300 later we were done with his birthday shopping and we wore him out. He fell asleep on the way back home. He told baby, you talk to M. I'm going to look at outside. I look back and he was out.
I have to say that even thought he wasn't any trouble that he did wear me out. We picked up some halal chicken and a cheeseburger for me. I'm going to start cooking more on the weekends. I think since baby is doing so well that he shouldn't be eating haram. I picked up some Kosher meat since the halal place is far away from me. I just have to remember that boy can eat. I am so use to cooking for one.
Well, Off to the land of Psychiatric Nursing I go. Wish me luck.
I HATE Stupid People: Warning long boring post!
Ok, I know you are asking yourself where does she get off thinking such a thing right? I know, but really there are lots of people running around that should just be locked up. Or just smacked around a couple of times.
My brother got hurt this week. I haven't spoken to him since Wed. and really need to call him. I know, terrible sister. But he has a lot going on and he was in HORRIBLE pain when I spoke to him last. But that will happen when you get HIT BY a CRANE! Yes, a crane. And this is the first story that I have with dumbass medical people. First, they do not airlift him off the ship. They wait until another ship passes by. Then they send him to a hospital where they proceed to just do X-rays say nothing is broken and send him home saying that he can go back to work in two days. WTF??? Have they ever heard of a MRI? A CAT scan? Maybe, just maybe they would want to check for um, like internal bleeding???? I was so mad. Oh, his whole body was just hit by a big piece of machinery. Fucking asses.
Well, I have been bad myself. I have been busy and I haven't had a chance to get blood work done for my regular doctor whom I really don't like. I refuse to back to her because she wants blood work every 6 months. I have been on my Synthroid for 5 years. I have always gotten tested every year after the first year and a half. I don't have insurance and she charges $100 a visit without blood work. Which is really high. Every physician I have ever gone to has charged $100 with blood work. So, I have been off my Synthroid for lets just say way to long. I don't have a thyroid. Very bad. Well, I have been feeling the effects now and they are getting worse. Cramping, mood swings, fatigue. Lots of fun! So I go to this clinic and ask the doctor if I can get a script refilled. A doctor visit is suppose to be $65 for one procedure visit. But he wants to charge me for a 2 procedure visit because he as to draw blood which will be $105 plus the lab charges $200 for the labs. I told him that I couldn't afford that.
Well, he says" just put pay part of it and put the rest on credit card". I said that I don't have a credit card. He says this like 20 times. I told him "look I'm a nursing student, I know that my labs are going to be crap and are going to be normal because I haven't taken my meds. why the blood work first"?
He says " well, as a nursing student you should know that lab values can change and that I might have to adjust your script. What are you taking?" Me, " 125 on weekends and 150 during the week".
Then he wants to get smart and say "well, that can change. And it's . 125 not 125".
This is when I look at him like he is the idiot and say "It's only .125 if you are speaking in milligrams. It is 125 if you are speaking in terms of micrograms. Which. I. AM. (fucking idiot)."
I love how he thought he was superior to me and just had to show me how wrong I was. Look here asshole I know my dosage calculations. Then he has the nerve to try to blame it on rules and tries to give me a card in case I ever get sick. Yeah, I want you taking care of me. Especially a doctor who REEKS of smoke. Yeah, whatever.
I found the nicest Muslim doctor who totally understood my point. Wrote me out a script for two months, wants to do blood work next month. Dr. visit was $50 and the blood work will be $40. He said that guy was just out for money not to help people. Which is just a pity isn't it?
I went and finally saw Tiesto Thursday night! It was awesome!!!!!!!!!!! I kinda wished that I had gotten seats because after being in class for 8 hours and then going straight to the show that didn't get out until 1am I didn't feel much like dancing. Besides, I find Trance not much fun to dance to. Maybe it's me. I also wasn't drinking so it was quite humorous watching the drunk people and the rollers. I thought it was cool that he actually looks like he is having fun when he mixes. I think that is awesome. Some people just love what they do I guess. It was a very weird mix of people I thought. I saw a lot of older people and just found that odd.
Me and someone got into the conversation that DJ's aren't musicians. Well, why not? I mean not just anyone can mix. You have to have a certain ear for mixing or it is going to sound like shit. I actually had someone say that house, dance, ect.... didn't have and soul or flair. WTF? I don't understand how someone has to have words in a song to qualify as music. RETARDS. Hehehe. I know, I'm a bitch. I really never know what I'm talking about. I just like to think I am! But I do think they are musicians. Some of them can just take you on a great trip while others have you standing there going WTF is this guy on. Know what I mean?
Of course baby once to start mixing again. He should, he really needs something fun to do. He works way to much.
Happy One Month Davey!!!!!! My nephew is now over a month old! I heard him on the phone and he sounds so adorable!! I can't wait to hold and hug that little bugger!
I'm a little sad to see my weekend end. I had a nice quite relaxing weekend. I got my house back to normalcy, laundry is done and I got more done than I thought I would. I just stayed in last night with baby. We watched some tv and I put my notebooks together for school.
I start my first day of clinical tomorrow and I am NERVOUS! I hope I get a nice, understanding teacher. I also hope I get another cool clinical group. I hope I don't get any back stabbing bitches.
I got to actually spend the whole day with baby today! We went to the Indian shop to return an outfit that I had bought a couple of weeks ago. The man there is super nice. There aren't suppose to be any exchanges or refunds but he said that if it didn't work out that he would exchange it. Well, I got it home and baby was like " no way, that outfit is way to see through!" I didn't realize it until I got it home. It wasn't that bad in the store! His mom was with me when I bought it and one couldn't tell it was so sheer in the store. So I ended up picking up a really beautiful black Salwar Kameez (spelling?) instead.
Then we headed to the mall so I could return a top to Dillard's. Then I returned a ring that mom had gotten me for my birthday. It was an inexpensive opal ring and I wanted store credit so I could come back and get something that I wanted later on. Well, the lady was not very helpful. I had to first return the money back on the credit card then get a store issued check. Ok, that makes no sense. I said well that's impossible because the credit card has been cancelled because it was stolen when my mom was robbed. Well, we have to put it back on this card and your mom will have to call and work it out with the bank. Ok, you dumb bitch. Why don't you try putting something back on a cancelled card. It is so not going to happen!!!!!!! Duh! I ended up just exchanging it for a gold toe ring. Why do people have to be so difficult?
Then we went and had a nice dinner at Buffalo's and then we came back and napped with the kitties for a couple of hours. Then he hung around and we talked until he had to go to masjid. It was nice day.
My M. gets in tomorrow!!!! I have missed that boy! I can't wait to see him! He will be here for the whole month!!!
Recap of my holiday
Well, I can say it was a very interesting New Year. I really don't know where to begin so I will just write a little about each day.
Thursday: My friends got into town, went to the mall, got my hair done. I LOVE my new hairdresser. She is very awesome and she doesn't charge a small fortune and she is 5 min. away from my house!
Friday: This day was spent mostly in malls and running errands. We went to two different malls and to find something to wear on New Year's. Ironically both of us girls wore something that we already had. I did get my jeans hemmed and they fit and look awesome. I returned the top baby gave me. I can't justify having a $140 top that I will wear maybe once or twice. So I exchanged my Citizens and returned the top and got a pair of 7's.
I was also questioned by the police!!! I was an actual suspect. How weird is that? Apparently the day before some girl that fit my description tried kicking in someone's door. But I guess she had the wrong apartment. The cop actually followed me around to three stores. I thought he was freaking kidding me. Seriously!! But I didn't do it and I have people who can vouch my whereabouts at the time of the crime. Ok, never thought those words would be coming out of my mouth. I told the police office that I would never be caught dead in a matching purple outfit and a scrunchy. Do I look like I'm in first grade? Ok, I really didn't tell him that but I was thinking it. Like I am going to talk back to a police officer. I'm not that crazy. Besides I was nervous and scared. He was a good looking police officer though.
Sat.: Ok, New Year's Eve. Well, this night was fucked up. We bought tickets to Space because I really wanted to go and haven't been in a really long time. I was ready for some fun but it just wasn't in the stars that night. I was the only one not drinking and baby ended up trashed. He was celebrating because he got salesmen of the month and broke the record for the most cars sold. 22 in one month! But C. ended up getting kicked out just after one and then baby wanted to drive and we wouldn't let him so he got all kinds of pissed off. We waited for C. until four in the morning outside but he went and passed out in the wrong parking lot. Well, by this point we thought he was in jail so we left. Well, an hour later he showed up at my apartment. Not fun at all. I was a little mad because no one was pacing themselves. If they had none of this would have happened. See why I don't drink anymore.
Sunday: Was a recovery day we just hung around the apartment and watched movies.
Monday: We went and saw the King Tut exhibition. I was rather disappointed. Very boring. And not worth the freaking $30 to get in. Bastards. I showed them some of Ft. Lauderdale. I wanted to take them out but they wanted to go home.
Tuesday: P. wanted to see SOBE so we headed there. Well, that was a disaster. Blah. We went and walked around and decided to eat dinner there. Well, I have to say I got the worst service ever! The waiter was total crap as was the manager. He started off on the wrong foot with me because he wanted to argue about the lunch special. The menu says it runs until 5pm, dude its only 3:45. I can read, moron. Then he brings the drinks and bread. No plates for the bread. Brings the appetizer. Still no plates. Had to hunt him down to get more drinks and bread. The people next to us were like "excuse me we are ready to order!". They were there awhile too. Well, he hardly checks on us and after awhile I realize that it has been an hour and a half since we ordered. WTF? The food finally comes out and mine, baby's and J. are cold. The plates are hot food so isn't. But P. and C. are steaming hot. I am PISSED. I told the waiter to take mine back. I wasn't going to eat it nor was I going to pay for it. J. did the same thing.
We complained and the waiter blamed it on us ordering an appetizer. It was a fucking quesidilla. Then he blamed the restaurant because of being busy, then the chefs, blah, blah,blah. Well, we finally got the manager and he was like what do you want me to do. Well, lets see here.... After lots of bitching he said we could keep the cold ass food and he would take it off. Fuck no. Then he finally offered to replace the cold ass food free of charge. Still no game with me. I said that I don't want the food. I am not trying to get a free dinner. I am trying to get good service with my food. So none of us but C. ate. That's because we forced him because he is diabetic. The bill came to a 79 dollars because J. and P. had 6 margaritas. They were the only ones drinking. Well, there was a $10 gratuity added on. I refused to leave it or any tip. I never not tip but I wasn't going to tip him. Well, he came over to see why we weren't. He gave the sad story of being an immigrant. Not going to fly with baby. You can't speak to him and tell he is an island boy you stupid fuck? Then I proceeded to explain why I didn't tip him. He cut me off when I started going into Time Management Skills. If you don't want to know, don't ask! I know people thought we were making a big deal about nothing but you do not wait an hour and a half for food. Especially when all the other tables get theirs and are already gone. Um, hello?
All that aside it was a fun day. We ended up in Ft. Lauderdale at the beach were the drinks were cheap, food was good, service was EXCELLENT and there was football!!!!!! I hate fucking Miami sometimes.
I had my first class yesterday. I have a med/surg rotation first. Which really rocks. I got the closest two hospitals next to me. Med/Surg in Boca and OB in Boynton Beach. The semester really has me worried. My books came today so I have no excuse for not studying. Blah! I only have one person from my old clinical in my new rotation. Boo-hoo. But most of my friends are in my Med/Surg lecture. Thank goodness. I would have been so lonely! Well, off I got to finish cleaning and do some studying. What a fun Friday night!!!!!!!!!!!:)
