I made it through my second day of fasting, masha'allah. How I do not know because today was TOUGH! I really felt horrible, had a headache, therefore slept most of the day. Not good since I have a gazzillion things that needed to be done. But I didn't eat well last night or this morning so I need to force myself to eat. Hopefully tomorrow will be better, insha'allah.
I felt bad because I really wanted to go the masjid this evening but I am just so exhausted. Not really a good excuse, I know.
I came over to baby's house and broke fast and read Maghrib with my future mother in law. Ok, that is just fun to say, hahahaha:) I still can't believe that I will be starting my own little family separate from mine. It will be so wierd and adult like. I so don't feel like a "true" adult.
So, I went to read Isha and half way through my first rak'at I realize that I didn't have my hijab on! Duh!!! I have never did that before. I really have gone off the deep end. Crazy town here I come......
Masha'Allah
Ok, short list this week. I'm in one of those moods. Crabby and depressed. Why? I don't know. I have nothing to complain about but I just feel
stressed. I haven't been sleeping much lately either. I'm sure that is helping oh, so much. I keep having weird dreams and then I wake up thinking someone is in the room with me. Really freaking me out.
1. Having an extra day to my weekend. I really needed it.
2. For being able to start my fast. That last hour was tough!!! I had to drop some food off for baby and work and I was not the most pleasant driver.
3. Baby is letting me drive his car to school. How cool is that!!! I guess he wants me to be have air since I have a long drive. He says I just have to get really good grades. Hahaha.
4. My kitty. He just makes me happy. He has this thing of watching me during salaah. He will sit on the side of my prayer rug and just watch me. And when I'm done he will come up give me a kitty kiss and walk off. I heart my cats.
So, I might make some brownies and muffins today. Or I might wait till tomorrow. I want to take some brownies to Iftar tomorrow and I'm craving blueberry muffins for some odd reason. I just have some studying to do and I might do some scrapping. I was suppose to be in the heart walk today. I then realized that I would have to be there at 7:40am. I live an hour away. So I will just donate double next year to make up for it.
The Weekend is finally here!
Well, I have an early weekend!!! I had no clinical today due do to some teacher's meeting. I'm not complaining. This rotation has gone by so fast and I feel like I have learned nothing. I gave meds for the first time yesterday. I haven't given med since med/surg last semester. No joke. I seem to always get the patients that need little to no care. It has been that way since OB and I feel so uncomfortable on the floor. I can't believe I'm going to say this but I miss med/surg. At least I got to do things and stayed busy.
Ronald McDonald came onto the floor yesterday. Totally freaked me out!!! My one phobia is clowns. I can see them in drawings and things like that but when I see them in person, they scare the hell out of me. He did give me card for free ice cream. I guess he felt bad about scaring me. Of course one of my classmates had to take it. I didn't even look at him and stayed away as far as possible.
So I'm going to get my hair done today. It really needs to be done and I'm sure I will feel much better once it's done. I hate when my hair looks bad.
I will begin fasting tomorrow, so I'm excited about that. Finally, my first fast!!! We are also invited to a friends house for Iftar. That should be fun.
I have the heart walk this weekend. I'm trying to raise money but it isn't going so well. I keep forgetting to ask people. Opps. So they only may be getting my donation. But hey it's something I guess.
I'm so excited!! I found a site that has a few scrabooking thins for Eid and Ramadan. I think that is way cool and just made me happy.
Boo-hoo
I don't want the weekend to be over. I'm not ready to go back to school!!! I have much to do and I feel like nothing got done. I went to the masjid Friday for my first Tarawih (spelling?). Ok, I wasn't expecting to be sore afterwards!!! I also didn't realize that we were doing 20 rakats either. I came home and just crashed afterwards. So I was all excited about my first fast. Well, the joke was on me. I won't be able to fast until next week. Grr. But it's probably best this way. I won't get use to it then have to start all over and be miserable again. It's all good.
We went looking for an outfit for the nikah last night. I didn't find anything. It is a little early and I was just looking to get an ideal of what I wanted. My mom told me to come up to Orlando to check out some places up there. But we are thinking we might do a weekend trip up to New York. I need some regular outfits too so it would be worth it. We made the guest list last night and I didn't realize so many people were coming. I guess I'm just surprised because it's mostly just his family coming.
So today I have to clean my apartment. There are clothes, books and papers everywhere! I also need to start studying. I can't slack off anymore after the first test. It was horrible. The highest grade was an 84 and passing is 75. All I can say is that I was in utter shock when I saw my grade. A BIG blow to my ego. So heads in books all the time. Oh, what fun it shall be. I am only going to say that I'm a little disappointed in this semester so far. Not what I expected. I just keep telling myself, 7 more months, insha'allah.
I also need to catch up my blogs. I haven't had a chance to read much lately and I'm missing people! It's weird that you care about people that you haven't ever met. The internet is a very strange thing.
Ramadan Mubarak!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This week's Masha Allah.
1. That this week
is over!!!2. Meeting cool new people
3. Did I mention that this week is finally over?
4. Being strangely calm during a whole bunch of unpleasantness that happened at school. Yeah, for not seeing me go crazy on headline news. I suspect my family and friends are expecting it though. All I have to say is Disorganization is amuck at this place. I should have known one the first day that it was going to be one of those rotations. Hopefully by the end of this semester I won't be on the crazy train.
5. For people being charitable. I gave a suggestion and ended being the chair for a donation drive. I was afraid that I wouldn't collect anything but people surprise me. I think that it just might work out. I'm pretty excited about it.
6. I may not know what hospital I want to work at but at least I'm figuring out which ones I
don't want to work at.
There should be a warning sign
I never knew that nursing school would drive me into insanity. I'm on the verge here!!! I'm like three steps away from getting the stamp "crazy" put upon my forehead.
Things are slowly going back to normal but I have had the week from hell. I really don't understand why some people have to cause so much freaking drama. I'm just glad that tomorrow is Thursday!!!!!! I am really enjoying pediatrics though. LOVE it!!! I don't think that I want to go into it right now because I really have my heart set on critical care. So I am off to bed because I feel like I haven't slept in days and if I stay up any longer I will only be step away from that "crazy" stamp.
My list of annoyances
Warning, this is going to be nothing but me complaining so if you don't want to hear move alone, nothing to see here folks.
1. To the moron who almost ran into me not once but twice, either lay off the hooch when driving or invest in some driving lessons. You suck. Stop means you put your foot on that left pedal, called a break. And please stay in your lane. You don't need three, you have a small car.
2. Nursing test. boo-hiss. Never again will I believe them when they say "oh, this will be a test question". Oh really, because it wasn't on the test. Apparently it was all an evil joke. So not funny.
3. People just being ignorant. You don't have to burn things down when you get angry people. Get some anger management. You make all Muslims look like freaks. People say stupid mean things, who said life was fair or easy. That doesn't give you the right to act like a three year old.
4. What is wrong with people saying we need more protest because the west is in war with Islam? Are these people high? Don't they realize that Ramadan starts in a few days? Shouldn't they be more concerned about themselves?
5. Ants, PLEASE LEAVE MY HOUSE!!!! I don't like you. Enter this house and you won't last long, ok? Now run along and tell your ant friends and relatives.
ok, rant over. I'm going to go eat lots and lots of chocolate.
Thought this was cute.....
Women are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of the tree. Most men don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they sometimes take the apples from the ground that aren't as good, but easy. The apples at the top think something is wrong with them, when in reality, they're amazing. They just have to wait for the right man to come along, the one who is brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree.
Now, men are like a fine wine. They begin as grapes, and it's up to women to stomp the crap out of them until they turn into something acceptable to have dinner with.
Feeling Blue
I'm in a funky mood today and I don't know why. I woke up, took a shower and then decided to go back to bed. I had lecture and a NSNA meeting but I just couldn't get motivated to go. Lucky for me that attendance doesn't count towards my grade. Hahaha.
But on the plus side I finally have internet and phone service again! It went out on me Saturday and they said that it would be running again by Monday. Well, that didn't happen. So I call and they say that they fixed it. Really? One would think that they would test it to make sure but they didn't. But they actually came out today and here I am. I have to say that being without internet has been the longest three days!! Crazy how attached one becomes to their computer. But on the brightside I did get a lot of studying done:)
So today is my sister's anniversary today. I hope that they have a good day. It seems like they have been married longer than two years. Weird.
I Heart Fridays
Ok, I had such a crappy day yesterday. Blah!!!! I did nothing yesterday. And let me tell you it felt wonderful! So I woke up today and had to go to up north to the halal store to pick up meat for me and baby's mom. So since we were going up there I decided to pick up his aunt so she could go to the masjid with us.
I had never been to this meat place before and they are so nice and fast. And a added bonus I got me some halal turkey bacon!! Woo-hoo!! I have missed my turkey bacon. I just hope it doesn't taste like crap.
So today I decided to go to ladies night and it was really nice. They are really friendly at this masjid, mash allah. I had a good time. I have decided to go on both Thursday and Friday nights now, Insha'allah.
I decided to go ahead and go with the 2 rentals with netflix. I was missing out really with just the one. I think it will work out better this way. Especially since I don't have cable. Of course I just waste more time on the internet since I have gotten cable. Doesn't help that my sister has a forum and so does Sobia. So now I
have to spend even more time on the internet. Hahahaha.
So we are planning for the Nikah in December and the wedding in February 2008. I'm pretty excited. I have asked my sister to be by Matron of honor and she said yes!:) She better, hahaha. I am getting really excited about planning things. One of my friends just got married a year ago so she is going to help. She knows tons of stuff in the area. So that's a bonus! So my future MIL made a suggestion of just having all our nieces and nephews in the wedding. So I will have 4 little boys and two little girls. Should be interesting.
So my masha Allah for the week are:
1. Being engaged to a wonderful man. I really think he was made just for me:)
2. For being able to talk to my sister twice this week!!!(Hardly ever happens because we are both really bad about calling)
3. To meeting new people and maybe them becoming new friends, insha'allah
4. For having two cd's of felicity to watch this weekend!! Ok, I know that this is a really old show but I never watched it when it was on air. I really wished I had because I love this show!!
5. For the nice sisters at the masjid who are always helpful to me when I don't know what I'm doing or ask really weird questions.
6. For being able to spend the whole day with baby's mom and aunt drinking tea and talking. I love girl time.
Blah......................
Good Things.....
1. My friends barbecue rocked. I was even able to eat because he made seafood dishes and sushi. I actually like sushi, who knew? His family was super sweet and his fiance was GORGEOUS and a total sweetheart. It was a good time.
2. I finally got my bridesmaids dress. Really a beautiful dress. But David's Bridal really needs more help. And what is up with men working there? WTH?
3. Here's some big news, I'm engaged!!! I finally told my sister so now I can talk about it on here. My sis would've killed me if I hadn't told her first:)
4. Having really good conversations with friends. I have been catching up with everyone and it is also awesome to run into people that I haven't seen in ages.
Bad Things.....
1. I ran into the wall in the parking garage at the hospital yesterday.
Don't ask me how I did it but I did. It did do a little damage to the car and it wasn't my car but baby's car. He handled it rather well. Of course he won't stop teasing me about. Grrr.
2. Arriving to do check offs a 9am at one's scheduled appointment and no one going by the appointment times and not getting out of there until a quarter to one.
3. Mean nursing instructors. Why? I mean there are some really nice ones this semester but there always as to be that one.....
4. I have the blahs and don't know why.
5. I have no food in my house and really don't want to go grocery shopping.
6. Every pretty silver shoe that I want is out of stock in my size. What is up with that?
I forgot to do my Masha Allaha yesterday so I will do them today. I guess I was in such a good mood, hahahaa.
Anyways...
1. I'm thankful that Ernesto was nothing more that a depression and not a hurricane. I think all of Florida is. I'm just fearful of what October will bring.
2. That they lower the hurricane predictions
again!!!3. That I have money to go buy my bridesmaids dress. Yeah, for unexpected money!!! I have been so freaking broke...
4. For having the coolest friends.
Well, I am going to scrapbook today. I really need to catch up. I am sooooooooo behind. Like two years behind. And I have lots and lots of pictures. Is there a 12 step program for those who take to many pictures? Because I think I might need one. And I haven't even began working on the NSNA scrapbook. I guess I better get on that one.
Hopefully the weather will stay sunny this afternoon for the barbecue. There is nothing worse than having a party and having it rained out. I debating on making brownies. I think I will because I am really craving some right now. But then my kitchen will be messy and it is all clean and pretty.
I just thought this was cute...
It's FRIDAY!!!
I am so happy that it is labor day weekend. I always loved labor day weekend. Especially up north. It was like the beginning of autumn for me. The weather would start getting slightly cooler, I would bring out the fall decorations, I got time off from school. I really miss fall.:( I miss the changing of the leaves so much.
So I had my Hessie exam today. I still didn't do as well as I would have liked but I am getting better!! The best course of action is not to pick the
logical choice but the dumb one. I still say it sucks ass.
I am excited because I'm actually getting out of the house this weekend!!! I am going to a barbecue that one of my friends from school is having. It should be fun. The only problem is that baby has to work and can't go with me. But I understand. The one thing I hate about his job is the hours.
So I plan on doing some studying, scrapbooking and maybe watching Felicity. Well, if my freaking dvd ever gets here. It was suppose to be here today and it isn't. Which just irks me but that's ok. I guess I'll have to find something else to do. Um, like study. ACK!
